I recruit

I have been lying awake, thinking about friends and evaluating friendships. It feels like ‘a brain in a vat’ that reality is only made believe. Even the ones who I once considered to be the best of friends, somewhere down the track I have often came to a point and thought ‘Fail, fail, fail!’ I may have believed we would be friends forever, but it has never been too hard to take a step away. The worst part is I would rationally decide that I want to ‘cut’ the person out of my life completely, simply because they cannot meet my expectations.

Have I set the bar too high? After all, I am not looking for a partner in life. Having said that, is it too much to ask, to remember what I said when I have been ranting on about the same thing for over half an hour? Is it too much to ask, to be genuinely happy for me when I just saved myself from depression? Is it too much to ask, to void certain phrases that lifts the scars to my wound? Is it too much to ask, to sacrifice a little in the name of our friendship? Or is it too much to ask?

Is this what humanity is? 

We are all flawed in different ways. We are all strengthened in different areas. We all have different expectations. Do we accept each other for who we are, or do we move on to the next lot of applicants?

For the best