Do we subconsciously choose reality?

How do we give up on something just like that? One imperfection ends the story, rinses the dreams of ever being together through doubts.

Am I that fickle? But do I want to be easy and land with anyone?
What is it that do I want? Fulfil a fantasy? Haven’t we all learnt by now that dreams are too abstract for reality? Perhaps denial weights out reality. In the end, our happiness comes from what we perceive. If the denial of an ill preceived world leads one to happiness, why not jump at it? Do we know in the back of our minds somewhere that we can’t live in anywhere outside reality? Why is the perception of reality so important to us? Or can we not live in denial due the risk of reality showing up again?

Are these questions alone more important than answer? Is process more important than conclusion? I guess these questions are more or less statement. I guess in life process last longer than conclusion. But is it right to choose quantity over combination?

It is not that I no longer love him; it is just that I no longer value what I once treasured.