Thursday, April 19, 2012

Gone yet?


He messaged me again after a month or over. When is it going to be too late? When is it going to be over?  When do I stop responding?

Have I finally met someone who is even slower than me? Sometimes I get so irritated with myself that I feel the rest of the world has already moved on. Why has this person messaged me after I have already accepted that it's over? Why?! Is this how logical minds work?

The longer I live the more it becomes evident that whatever I can do, someone can do better. Whatever I cannot do, someone else can do worse.  No need to compete in either directions, I will never win.

Some people I just do not understand.

I miss him.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

The desire to fly

Sometimes I believe if I fly away to a land far, far, away, everything will be okay.
To start life from scratch, build new networks, adjust to culture, and learn about the world.
Perhaps only in the earnest of survival, we see the world for what it is and we find what it is we are living for.

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The truth is I am just looking for an easy way out – a simple path to change.