I walked past her room. His towel, her clothes tossed across her bed. I turned to peer into his room, her body lotion, body spray, facial products spread across his dressing table. Their daily routines and chores are so intertwined together. Sometimes that’s what it is; sometimes that’s all it is. It holds two together. By choosing not to break this bond is at the same time the path of less resistance.
One month. It just surprises me that people subconsciously without wanting to can commit so much. And I begin to wonder have I ever committed a hundred percent to anyone?
In Foundations of International Business, we were asked to distinguish the difference between globalisation and internationalisation. After going through the text book, I found that globalisation is about diminishing national borders of economy while internationalisation maintains its national culture, economies, and politics, yet cooperates across these national borders.
In the past, it did not matter how much I cared or how much I let someone influence me, cooperation was the best I could do.
On the way home tonight from dinner with mum, she suggested that I go with a touring group to BieJing(北京) on my trip to China. I rebutted, she allowed herself to go on and on and on. Eventually, I held my tongue, almost felt like I was being mature. Perhaps, for me it was the path of less resistance and avoidance in the long run. It is like when they try to twist your arm back into its place, they give you something to bite on as you tightly shut your eyes. It is as if by doing that you are able to compress the tensions inside of you enough to snap out of the situation. I shut my mouth. Because we can’t ‘mutualise’ in the way some firms can globalise, we can only ‘interpersonalise’.
Even with friends, there are times when we connect so well that I repeat the jokes in my head after they are gone and laugh by myself. Nevertheless, somewhere along the path I’d still feel obligations to be nice, to be polite, to sympathise, to let them know that I am there, so they feel how I would like to feel. On one hand, we are all just fooling ourselves with this nonsense role play. On another hand, imagine how cold the world will be if we stopped this act, and only said “thank you” or apologised when we really meant it.
I don’t know if it is just me, or is it really none of us can ‘mutualise’.
